get it till the end.

tired.

of everything but i aint gon get into that.

work today. new job ... the GAP. ha dont laugh.

( que SPACESHIPS- KANYE WEST ft GLC & CONSEQUENCE)

anyways.. it was a trip.

been a min since I been workin for a place like that. smh.

them folks is decent. gotta feelin they hella wack tho.

so i dont even talk

i jus work smile work.

PAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUSSSSEEEEEE.

fold. work. smliee hella fuckin much..etc repeat.

the money straight.

so im fuckin wit it anyways.

tomorrow is another day tho.

fuck i got homework... that i just remembered. womp

.... bout to do that shit.

FUUUUUUUUUUUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK !!!!

10:41

im gettin sleepy.

homework done

i have two clues; ones for you.

i cant placate ya problems.

idk what is going on.

smh

feeling like.

people expecting me to be the answer??

but we on two diff. questions... smh.

u jus complicating my shit.

im tryna get the fuck up outta here.

gawd !! where ima go

... cali.

that was too easy.

but honestly.

im jus throwd.

i cant be what you want me to be.

ta deaf brah.

its jus like ima only do me. && when people try to make me apart of something that i didnt have input on its like damn. --- breathheeeeeeee. lemme get my space.

cause i LOVE MY SPACE.

boy said he like me... so do 6 others.

he say he serious. i told em they are too.

he want me. i dont wanna be had.

so im solo. then niggas get madd??

i cant make it work.. if you cant let me do me on my own time.

i cant make it work.. if you dogging my lifestyle. and constantly putting me down??

lol idk even kno why i cranked this list..

i cant make it work.

cause you dont kno me.

&& i aint tryna kno all of you.

this nigga told me he had a curse. we stopped talkin like 2 months after that. cause he jus believed the negative to his heart. and i couldnt handle it. then it made me hate em.. but i really still care. smh.

i feel like i caught the curse.

:O

pre-blog update/ love song

its ridiculous how everytime i blog there is always a significant change from the last one.

not that i didnt expect life to do as it does. but FUCK.

theres no consistency in my life.

at least not where i want it..

-- still miss solo. all day. every fuckin day.

cant trust em .. EVER. damn shame.

real blog next time.. too busy rollin up..

BUT.

this song says it all for now.

the charismatic character formally known as miss SOLO.

the days are melting together.

.. idk what i been doing.

too much.

not enough.

i need a schedule. a definite set time that i do certain things. [mental note]

feelin like taylor swift. and the world is kanye LOL.

pity moment.

smh

gotta stop playin tha sucka.

fuck all that tho.

i been on dates.

lol ahh?? solo? really?

and chea.. ithink they officially fit into that category.

i kinda like dude. we vibe. . .. nothing life changin. ---yet.

jus good times to say the least. im smitten.

feels good to go out. have a lil genuine attention... anyways.

its gettin cold.. i want somebody to lay next to. :)

i keep liking these people. and schedules and jus life situations make gettin togetha difficult.

which leads me to believe GOD tellin me to focus on somethin else.

so i focus on something else.

i digress.

boosie going to jail. 2 year stunt. drug and weapon possession. still tryna figure out how tip only got a year??? hmmmmzzzz. real nigga shit. somebody make it add up. cause i refuse to believe the hate but its the only thing that make sense.

nicki minaj actually got real grown n sexy pics out. not the wordup mag lookin ones.

she def. practiced wha she preachd.

and stepped tha pussy up.

i thought i was gon be mad BUT

big ups.

fuck tha haters.

BAD BITCH--------------->>

i been crankin tha gym. pics soon of tha abs. soo fye. soo official. if i do say so myself.

i been on this super underground oldie kick. & young wayne.

tryna findd random ish... circa 60-69 and really listening to wayne again. IAMAFAN.

--- also workin on me something vicious.

my dude chicago told me: YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY TOO.

shit blew my mind.

i honestly never jus sat there and said that too myself.

on the comeback. fuck wit me. im headed to the top.

no stixx no stems no seeds

life is exactly what you make it. i thank god everyday for that. cause lately i been keepin my head hella high.. takin blows like a G. my heart aint as heavy. i thank god for that everyday.. now im jus tryna find my exact purpose. Trying to blossom into a lady LOL.. key word is trying. anyways.

new job on deck.. aint smokedd in a few days. my body feels. LIGHT. lol andd i dont ever blame tha mary jane. but mary jane im doin great without you. ill never sway completely. always my main bitch. but still.. my vision stupid clear.

i been hittin tha gym.. LOL tryna get my body super right.

i want a butt LIFT! ahhh lol. or jus an ass. smh.

my abs gettin stupid. cant wait till my birthday... 5 months 4 days.

:)

ughh i got a thang for this boy.. but arent we some dreamers.. lol

its like im fallin for myself cause he say everything i think. smh. which explains too much.

might be a short livedd situation.. STILL its a beautiful thing.

im all about havin my own personal world wit somebody.. even if it cant be forever.

i miss good music.

love life.

???

feelin judged.. but what else is new. [insert jesus metaphor]
.. im mad that im irkd by my friends.

happy that im mature enough to understand it.


new job starts oct 12th. real excited.. less than a month to go.

FAITH without WORK is DEAD.



amen